I had kept a pale blue shawl beside me for the
satsang on Gudhi Padva, unconsciously prompted by a dream I had some weeks earlier but had forgotten—until I read “A Tangible Experience of Grace.” In that dream I’d seen Gurumayi wearing a pale blue shawl as she stepped into a chaotic scene. When she pulled me close to her, all the chaos dissolved in the golden love pouring through her eyes. Everything became as soft and delicate as her shawl. With a gentle, luminous smile, Gurumayi kept me at her side. I awoke feeling each cell of my being lit up with her love—and profoundly at peace.
Wearing this shawl when I chant and meditate now, I feel I am that person in the Temple whom Gurumayi saw, wearing the bluish-white shawl. I always feel her gaze upon me. I connect with the golden
murti of Bade Baba, surrounded by bluish luminosity, like Gurumayi’s golden love surrounded by a delicate blue shawl. It reminds me that I am anointed by the love of God.
California, United States
I loved reading Gurumayi’s “A Tangible Experience of Grace.” It reminded me of an experience I had at Shree Muktananda Ashram in 1983. When I received
prasad in the Bhagavan Nityananda Temple after the Arati, I saw blue light coming out of my hand. It was astonishing and beautiful.
California, United States
Happy inward journey!
As I was reading Gurumayi's experience, I could feel that my body was becoming relaxed. Suddenly, it felt as though the top of my head exploded into billions and billions of shimmering blueish white particles. After some time, these particles started to take the form of Bade Baba. Bade Baba's eyes were full of compassion and love. As I lowered my gaze, I saw the smiling face of Baba in the heart region of Bade Baba’s form. In Baba's eyes I could see Gurumayi looking at me with love. As I was connecting with Gurumayi, everything turned into blueish-white shimmering light, which finally took the golden form of Bade Baba's
murti.
Lucknow, India
A few months ago I moved into a new space. It’s a bit small, but I was able to keep my Lord Shiva Nataraja statue on my bedroom dresser. All this time he was facing towards my bed. It was only yesterday that I decided he could be facing me while I'm at my computer, dealing with somewhat difficult issues. When I look at him, he reminds me that life can be experienced as a dance, and that energy is helping me tackle these issues.
Today, as I read and reflect on Gurumayi's beautiful share, I am flooded with the love and insight she provides and the power exuded by this tangible expression of the Self.
California, United States
I have experienced these live video stream
satsangs as an upsurging of love and serenity. After doing my practices this morning, as I repeated
Om Namah Shivaya with joy and
Atma ki Prashanti with a smiling sweetness, I felt light coming from inside, although my body was not well. It was brief, but my heart was leaping with joy: “The light is here! The light is here!”
Soon after, I reread this experience of Gurumayi in the Temple and I felt that this blueish-white light had reached me inside myself.
I have always felt a special connection with the sacred fire burning before the
murti of Lord Shiva Nataraja. My heart is full of gratitude to remember that this sacred fire is kept going every day and shines for every one of us. For me, it is a sacred symbol that represents the comforting fire of spiritual life.
I am so happy that the subtle light of this sacred fire has come to all of us in the form of Gurumayi's share!
Ramonville-Saint-Agne, France
The depth and breadth of Gurumayi’s love and her immense support for us move me deeply. Reading this beautiful experience, which Gurumayi has shared so generously with us, reminds me that this world is constantly revealing God’s blessing.
My fervent wish is that, as I make efforts to be more steadfast in this way of seeing, I may bring its blessing to the beings who share our world.
Hampton, Australia
I am grateful to Gurumayi for sharing this sweet, delicate experience of oneness and connection. The visual dimension of her experience reminded me of a dream I once had, which also showed me the oneness of the Siddhas.
In the dream, I saw Bade Baba in the Temple in Gurudev Siddha Peeth. He was wearing white. Then I saw Gurumayi, also wearing white, and sitting where Bade Baba's
murti is. In the dream Bade Baba was merging into Gurumayi and Gurumayi into Bade Baba; it was like the way that pictures fade into one another in a slideshow. During the merging into one another, there was a whitish light, similar to what Gurumayi described in her experience.
For me, it was a moment of
darshan of the Siddhas, a moment of recognition. I am grateful for this gift of remembrance after reading of Gurumayi’s sacred encounter with Lord Shiva Nataraja.
New York, United States
I loved the fact that Gurumayi saw Lord Shiva Nataraja in something which is external, such as the smoke and the color of a participant's clothing. Then the mystical experience of shimmering blue particles happened.
I learned that I should perceive divinity outside me, for this invites the divine experience within me. Now I see Lord Shiva Nataraja dancing in the flame of the lamp we light for Arati.
Thane West, India
When I got up this morning, I felt a heaviness inside me as I looked out into the overcast sky, as if I were sensing the weight of the world during this pandemic. Before sitting down to meditate, I turned to the Siddha Yoga path website and read Gurumayi's experience in the Temple.
As I was reading it, I looked up and saw, in the skyline, a growing patch of grey-blue light penetrating the clouds. As I continued to watch the growing light in the skyline, I realized that my experience was reflecting Gurumayi's experience. My heart and body became lighter and lighter. Heaviness was falling away, and replaced by inspiration and strength—and then it was time to meditate.
The Guru's grace is amazing, and ever present.
California, United States
It is very early in the morning and snow has fallen during the night, making an astonishingly beautiful blue-white picture around our house. As I marveled at God's magnificence, I sat and read this jewel of Gurumayi's experience.
I am so grateful for her description of grace in nature, and for her generosity in sharing her experience with everyone in the Temple, and then with all of us. How fortunate we are that she lets us see through her eyes, inviting us to rediscover the world.
New York, United States
I feel immense gratitude in reading Gurumayi's personal share. It fills my heart with tears of joy. How fortunate I am to belong to such a great lineage, and to have Gurumayi as my living Master! How fortunate I am to be invited into Bade Baba's Temple during these live video streams.
As I read “A Tangible Experience of Grace,” I learn to deepen and cherish my own experience of Bade Baba's golden form, and of being in the Temple in his divine presence.
Saint-Charles-Borromée, Canada
After reading Gurumayi’s experience, I felt moved by Bade Baba to sit for meditation. I sat and meditated on Bade Baba’s form and Gurumayi’s share. I felt the sweet meditation energy that I often feel when meditating, but this meditation was especially rich in joy and feelings of gratitude. It seemed to me I was being given the experience described by Gurumayi: “To be suffused with such divine energy is to be anointed by the love of God.”
New York, United States
Reading Gurumayi's description of her experience in the Temple and imagining it in my mind's eye, I felt as if I were being anointed by the grace of the wave-like blueish luminosity. I am grateful to Gurumayi for this gracious gift.
Massachusetts, United States
Gurumayi’s sharing resonated with an experience I had many years ago in Bade Baba’s Temple. During my first visit ever to the Temple, I was hypnotized by the golden form, the enlivened
murti of Bade Baba. After the Evening Arati I sat there meditating on his form. I felt my inner eye become one with my physical eyes and I witnessed blue smoke arising out of the center of Bade Baba’s head, flowing outward and filling the Temple. It reminded me of depictions of the Ganges flowing from the locks of Lord Shiva—and now, also of aspects of Gurumayi's Message Artwork for 2020.
From the very first live video stream in this “Be in the Temple” series, having
darshan of Bade Baba has revived this memory for me very strongly. I couldn't help feeling that blue smoke as I joined Gurumayi and my fellow
sadhakas in the Universal Hall. And now that I have read Gurumayi’s experience, I am drawn closer to this understanding: the Guru is the conscious Self.
New Jersey, United States
As I was reading Gurumayi’s description of her experience, I could visualize the blue light shimmering around Bade Baba’s golden form. And as I continued reading, the blue light seemed to engulf me as well.
Savoring this moment, my heart filled with love and gratitude to my beloved Gurumayi for sharing this golden blue moment.
Chennai, India
What a blessing it has been for me to read Gurumayi's experience of witnessing Lord Shiva Nataraja's energy in the Bhagavan Nityananda Temple! Gurumayi’s words gave me a perfect moment to join her in being “a witness to the dance of Lord Nataraja in the form of the rising smoke.”
Gurumayi’s description of her experience also opened my eyes to Lord Shiva Nataraja's power and energy.
New York, United States
I offer my deepest gratitude to Gurumayi for sharing this most beautiful, comforting, subtle experience with us. Gurumayi’s words allow me to feel I am there too, completely, and to also feel “anointed by the love of God” in the form of the “pulsating blueish-white smoke” from the fire pit in front of the
murti of Lord Shiva Nataraj.
May this anointing increase my compassion and love for all living beings during this time.
California, United States
How much grace Gurumayi is pouring into our hearts by creating these live video streams for Siddha Yogis around the world! I find them divine, in that we are led to experience the higher states of love, joy, and peace—even now during the global pandemic crisis. And I realize that my personal responsibility for my
sadhana must also grow to stay in tandem with Gurumayi’s abundant grace.
New York, United States